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Self Conviction Condemn

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Updated: Jan 30




Suicide for the crying of help

no longer shocked by it

No needs met in it

All too common?

Better off & well ridden

Sad and lonely is normal

Buck up butterfly

The appropriation of self concerning acts.

My therapy of “tired” is eternal sleep

Who doesn’t feel this in today’s society?


My concern of other

They would be better off

Better off without my making

Making of trouble

Making of wrong decisions

And the making of failures


I screwd up

I’m broken for it.


I try to unsee it

It’s always reminded


Sometimes. You really can’t escape your past.


Growth?

Its more acceptance of the result of the ending and that’s all that is certain, eternal


Just turn it off already

My worth is nothing shallow and unseen

Unseen ?

Overly seen ?

to hate despise and shun me for what I am,

For what I do


To you. A fix

To me. The knife I cannot undo.












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Born and raised in the sub-burbs of Seattle Washington. I quickly started my profession after high school in Holistic Health and esthetics in 2004 where I mastered European esthetician facials, lymphatic drainage and hot cold therapies. In my Youth I also enjoyed very much the world of make up and coloring hair,  in 2008 I went for my cosmetology license. I mastered cuts, color nails, wedding up styles and makeup. I helped start two new salons with a mentor of mine. Until 2012 when I moved to Big Sky , Montana and started my own Salon. Opening at first a small shop that later turned into a Dream salon of my own with three hair chairs, three pedi and mani stations and a small practitioner/esthetics room.  We served the small ski town of Big Sky: its residents a town of 3,000+, Travelers passing through on to west Yellowstone, vacationers that flew in and the enthusiastic Skiers, Bikers, Hikers and fishing folks of course. Where I happily served for nearly 4 years until 2020 shot the gun in my foot and I did what a lot of people did then...   decided to take a long break....    For one reason and another I had made the decision to quit hairstyling and move on to something else... Having a young boy of my own and wanting to enjoy more of him and questioning my life and the salon industry as a whole. I've opened myself up to the land of learning. Farming culture, raising food, foraging, Herbalism, canning along with learning more about myself who I am. 

 

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